HI HO, HI LOW, It's off to work I go

It's only Thursday, but, thankfully, my first work week is over. Again, that economy that is nothing but bad is good for me. My hours are reduced, so I get more time with my O.
The first day was the hardest, but I have to say I didn't cry as much as I thought I would. Basically, when I left the house, I cried, I cried on the way to work and then I cried when Karen asked me how I was doing. PS - I am so grateful for all of the support I received from friends and family the first day. It really helps to have people who have been there reassure me that everything was going to be okay. Although, the only reason, I think, why I didn't cry the WHOLE day was because I just got so completely and utterly tired. I didn't have the energy to be sad...I mostly felt numb.
I could not wait to get home and wrap my arms around my baby. As luck would have it, she wasn't there when I got home! I had to white knuckle it until John got home. I called my mom to complain ;-) Of course, as soon as he got home, I ran to get her out of the car seat and, SHE WAS ASLEEP ;-0 How dare she not have her arms outstretched! (oh yeah, she can't do that yet) Luckily, she woke up shortly after getting home...I think it was the fact that I was breathing on her and using my mental power to wake her up!
She receives reports from her daycare: when she was fed, when she was diapered, when she napped...general comments. Aside from the mundane, her reviews were raves. Smiled all day... I was so proud of her! I knew she'd make a great impression on her caregivers. I mean, how could they NOT be smitten!
The next day was grandma-pa daycare. I wasn't as sad on day two because I knew she would be loved all day. The only complaint I have is that Olivia smelled like grandpa's cologne when we picked her up. There is something disconcerting about a baby that smells like a grownup...especially a baby girl smelling like a man. But, if that's all I have to complain about, I can consider myself blessed (and I do!)
I had a meeting with a client that day. He was surprised to hear that I had just recently given birth because I "lost the weight quickly". Whether or not he meant it, and I feel like I have a lot of tightening and toning to do, he made my day. It's good to hear things other than "are you here for the prenatal class?"
Wednesday, Olivia was back at daycare at John's work. That day her reviews were not as happy as the first day. She apparently was crying more. Oh woe is me. I hope this is not a trend. I don't want my baby to be sad! I want her to be happy and make friends with the other babies, and not want for the attention she deserves.
That night, John, O, my mom and I went to a tapas restaurant because I had read they had live music. Okay, I was thinking Spanish guitar...that would be soothing for Olivia. Well, there was a guitar involved, but the guy was singing standards and not the exotic Spanish guitar ala Almodovar films that I was hoping for. Nonetheless, the restaurant was packed (I think that others shared my hopes for exotic music). I was worried that the noise level would upset Olivia and we would be up all night, but she just slept the whole time! I am so happy to know I can take her out to restaurants (for now) and am not a slave to my kitchen. The food was good, the sangria was great... Well, the only hitch in this great night was that Olivia was so tired she did not nurse a ton when we got home and woke up hungry at 2am. But, what's past is past.
That's another concern I have...mostly about myself. Olivia is starting to be able to sleep longer, but now she has gotten to making noises (mostly sucking her hands) at around midnight. I take this as my call to bring her in bed with me. It's probably not the correct thing to do, but it's a drug for me. Despite all of the warnings, I am getting dangerously close to that time where you CAN start spoiling your baby (especially when it comes to sleeping) and I don't know if I can give up holding her in my arms while I sleep. I love being able to hear and feel her breathing and knowing she's safe and snug. I may need an intervention, or I will have problems shortly with her not being able to sleep in her own bed.
Olivia is now a drooling fool. Google has given me several reasons for this...teething, developing saliva as an indication that she's ready for solids soon, sucking on hands...all things that are not to be concerned about. The only thing is I am not yet used to putting bibs on her all of the time and her clothes get soaked. It's really amazing how much liquid comes out of such a tiny baby!
Speaking of liquid..Olivia is still going number two ALL of the time. We went from every other day to every hour. I miss the time when I was concerned that she was constipated...

Below are the comments from John and the caregiver regarding O's first days at daycare:
06.01.09
JOHN: Olivia looks very happy and is watching the other kids. When I first got down there she looked at me then smiled. Generally they commented on how good she was and how much she smiled. Caregiver also commented on how fast she drank. Not 1st place but a close 2nd to another kid...
It was bit of a mad house at daycare this morning. Luckily, I got there just before the rush. Olivia was watching the other kids when I left. I'll go back down at lunch.
TEACHER COMMENTS: Great day! :-) Olivia has been in a happy and smiley mood. She had fun looking at the hanging toy by the mirror. She took her bottle good and went to sleep on her own in her crib :-) Giving us lots of smiles :-) She's a wonderful baby :-) (don't I know it!)
WONDERFUL FIRST DAY!
06.03.09
JOHN: I went down there for 20 or so minutes over lunch. She was having her the 2nd bottle... First was at 9:30! Hope she has a long afternoon nap...
Anyway, I got Olivia to burp and she was happy looking around at the other kid, all who had just made a very big mess with lunch. I put her on the mat and showed her pictures and put her hands on the hanging toys. I turned away to talk to the caregiver and when I looked back Olivia had grabbed on of the toys hanging by her... that's something new. She got a bit crabby so I picked her up and she was happily looking at the other kids.
TEACHER COMMENTS: A little bit sad today :-( She cried more today than yesterday, but was fine on the floor mat while playing with daddy :-) Smiling at times. Looking around and watching other children playing on the floor.