When I see O smile

I was working from home yesterday, laptop on my lap as she played in our living room and I hear this thump, thump, thump of her (still army)crawling over to me. Fwap fwap..two tiny hands on the couch seat and then two big blue eyes peer over the edge of the couch. With a room full of toys (some new and not cheap), all she wants is to play with the big glowing thing that mommy has on her lap. I try to keep it out of her reach, but that just causes her to cry. O's getting an opinion now...and I have come to the unfortunate conclusion that working from home is no longer an option if she's there too. Major bummer.

The reason I was working from home yesterday is O has caught another cold. This time from Millie (my best friend's girl). Part of it is my fault as the whole family went to visit my friend this past weekend and, she did warn me that Millie was caughing. After consulting with John, we decided it was fine and that we would just keep them as separated as possible. In hindsight, we probably should not walked into the germ zone, but I thought we could take preventative measures and maybe come out unscathed. WRONG. Both John and Olivia are in the throws of a cold. (The fact that I have been religiously taking generic Emergen-C might be why I have escaped...so far). It has gotten to the point where O has a minor cold of some sort more than she is 100% healthy. I wonder what my breastmilk has actually made her immune to. She had better be a genius cuz I am starting to appreciate when she is "normal" more often than I feel I should.

Speaking of the reasons why I am still breastfeeding dissappearing... my period has come back with a vengance. Afer 18 months of nothing, I got it good. I guess I overstayed my welcome in the "friend" free zone. I think I remember hearing that the first one is a bit longer than usual. Oh goodie. The plus side is I would technically know how to start planning baby number two.

This time around, I think I am not going to go back on the pill. I feel like it will be one less reason why it takes so long for me to get pregnant. Ironically enough, I hear that alcohol can also decrease your ability to get pregnant (even though alcohol has been the cause of many a pregnancy, I am sure). But that's a guilty pleasure I am not quite yet ready to avoid just yet. I would like to give O a sibling before I am 35, so I have at least a year... and then it all depends on how secure the job market is... aka secure my job is.Although I would love to just stay home if I had a second one...we'd have to outweigh the cost of daycare with what my actual income is. (Suprisingly enough a licensed architect does not make a lot of money even though our education and exam process is on par, if not more, than doctors and lawyers.

I was having problems coming up with a title for this blog. It's weird to think of your life experiences in chapters with titles. Sometimes I know exactly what the theme of my blog will be and sometimes it's a bit more random. The title of this one came from the fact that I looove my baby's smile. She crinckles her nose and eyebrows and smiles with her whole face. If there's anything that has made me sad or upset that day, I just forget it all when I see her smile. She's not always consistent with what makes her smile, so you've got to be on your toes. What you did to get the honor of her smile one day will not be so amusing to her the next. If you were a fly on the wall in my house, you would probably think I am a looney tune with the noises and gestures I make...but I am trying to get my fix of the most amazing smile ever. Other mom's may think their baby has "THE" smile. But, they'd be wrong. >:D